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A twenty two year-old's view on life, death,
and Taylor Swift conspiracy theories
and Taylor Swift conspiracy theories
4/7/2014 0 Comments Good Days and Bad DaysIt's unavoidable, we all have good days and we all have bad days. For me, I have good days, bad days, and very bad days. I've struggled with my self-esteem for most of my life, and I'm sure there are many others out there who can relate. It wasn't exactly easy growing up around people who were all stick skinny and ate whatever they wanted to without gaining an ounce. My mother was also all about living a healthy lifestyle, while the rest of us all sat around eating Twinkies all day, so she was always in much better shape than the rest of us. Though while I looked out of shape and overweight, my sister had a six-pack. So long story short, I now do my very best to be as healthy as possible. I eat only natural foods, and try to exercise everyday and I have been determined that this summer I will be comfortable in my body at the beach. While I'm at the point where I'm more comfortable with my body than previously, there is still much more progress I want to make. So, of course, some days I wake up feeling bloated and "fat" (bad days) and other days I wake up and really do see the progress (good days). The worst is when you have a series of bad days in a row. This is when the very bad days come into play. These are the days when I start to lose hope that I will ever have the body I want or that I will even be comfortable in my own skin. It seems like all the progress I had seen in the previous week has miraculously disappeared and I am left back at square one. But do not fret, for those of you who experience days like this and are going through a similar process as me, I am here to tell you it's OK. First of all. F*** all those people who are making you feel inadequate or who made fun of you in the past to make you so self-conscious. They aren't even worth the time, and by letting them make you feel this way you are letting them win. It's not fair to you and it's not fair to those around you who are trying to support you and help you get to where you want to be in life. You are perfect the way you are, and no matter how cliche that is, it is completely true. Secondly, never forget that these bad days come and go. They aren't forever and the good days will return in time. Sometimes it's just a waiting game. You can also make them come back, if you lighten up on yourself just a little and stop seeing yourself in such a negative way. Now don't get me wrong, I absolutely suck at doing all these things. I know that they are true, but that doesn't make them easy to carry out in real life. I may talk the talk, but I am still working on how to walk the walk. It takes time and determination and a lot of outer support to break down the walls of insecurity that people build up over years and years of torment and cruelty. So there's the truth of it. It's damn hard work to lighten up on yourself, especially when you've made a habit out of it. But it's not impossible, not at all. Thank you for reading, Amanda Lucille Song of the DayNext in Line by Walk the Moon
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