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A twenty two year-old's view on life, death,
and Taylor Swift conspiracy theories
and Taylor Swift conspiracy theories
Today's post is a bit of an update on the on-going of college life for all those family and friends who I don't get to see all the time or just those who are curious I suppose.
Sorry if it's a boring topic, tomorrow's will be more universally pleasing, I promise!
Mondays and Wednesdays I have my English369 lectures. This class, "Studies in Modern Fiction", is by far my favorite class.
It's a great feeling to go into a class and think, this is where I belong. I know it sounds a bit cheesy, but I honestly think this whenever I am in class.
Today, I was once again reminded of this when my professor, Stephen Clingman, was drawing parallels between Wide Sargasso Sea, the novel we were currently studying, and Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte. The class wasn't obligated to read Jane Eyre but Professor Clingman suggested that we do so for it is a great novel, then he muttered almost under his breath how there is nothing like a great book.
Having spent my life growing up around people who just don't get my complete love for literature, besides my sister and father (though Audrey loves more YA paranormal romance and doesn't quite appreciate pre-modernist literature as I do), it is rather refreshing when you sit down in a class surrounded by others who are just as invested as you.
For much of my life I have been rather frightened of growing up and not being happy. You always hear people telling you to "do what you love" and to "forget about the money". Well I want to do what I love and make a lot of money. It's not all in vain. I simply don't want to have to live pay check to pay check. I want to eventually have children and I want them to have the privileges that I did as a child, such as presents at Christmas and back to school clothes shopping. So I am absolutely determined to make this happen.
But first I need to know what I would "love to do".
I thought for so long that I wanted to be a chef...until I went to Monty Tech.
Now, don't get me wrong, I absolutely loved going to Monty Tech and I absolutely loved being in the Culinary trade. I still love to cook, but I know now that I do NOT want to work in a kitchen for the rest of my life. It is a loud, smelly, stressful job with horrible hours. But hey, if you work in the Culinary Industry and you love what you do then good for you, I just learned that it wasn't for me.
I still think that it would be nice to own a small, local diner or a cute cupcake shop, but maybe later in life when I need something to do with all this acquired 'character'.
but that's another story.
So I moved on to Film Studies when looking for colleges.
I have always loved watching movies, making movies and learning about movies, so it only seemed natural for this to be my next step.
I am now currently study film at UMass Amherst and thoroughly enjoy it - though I love doing hands on work much more than my lectures where we only talk about making movies. But don't worry, I understand that these lectures are necessary in order to get to the hands on classes. I have already worked on two different TV shows in my 1 1/2 semesters here and I am really liking it.
But nothing has hit me so forcefully as this feeling in my literature classes. I like to think that this is what you feel like when you fall in love. They say that when it happens, you just know. I had always doubted this but when I sit in this Studies in Modern Fiction class I just know, this is where I am meant to be, this is what I am meant to do. I love studying for class, I am interested in my research, and I want to impress my teachers and prove myself to them.
During my discussions on Fridays I am comfortable (we only have six students in my section so it's not very intimidating) and I feel good about participating and giving my opinions. I work harder in this class than in any others and I absolutely cannot wait to take more English classes in the future.
Thank you for reading,
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